Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Today was a big fear-facing day for me. I feel like I have been kind of preaching to a good friend of mine about how wonderfully talented he is and how he is going to do well for himself if he ventures out on his own and believes in himself. Easy for me to say for many reasons- one being that I truly believe it, I see it as clear as day. And two being it's not me that has to leave the security of my job to freelance and start my own company. I mean I did do that but it is still a hard thing to take that first step.
Facing your fears is one of the hardest things to do.
Well since I started running I have been nervous about really pushing myself- in a variety of ways- blogging about it, for one. Because then I have to actually follow through! But it's been helpful actually, so one down. Then running straights, I hate them SO much, I need trickery when I run, curves, not long, daunting streets. Or hills. There is not much love going on there either. Well, my past two Tuesday runs have been one gigantic long straight run. With hills. Long, slow, painful crazy ass hills! The first time I ran I turned before the biggest hill with plans to tackle that one the next time I ran this route. Well, I ran it sooner than I thought I would, in the freezing cold with a hearty wind whipping around! Just for fun, right. Well, I made it up that big hill, almost puked, but I made it! Did the longest run to date of 4.5 miles in 58 minutes! What was the worst that could happen? People seeing me in spandex? Well, too bad for them. It's not like I busted out with a unitard or anything. That's for the spring. It's not like I looked like Richard Simmons or anything.
Oh and the best part, but also the saddest part is there is now officially less of me to go around. Sorry! I seemed to have misplaced about seven pounds? Has anyone seen them? :)